Last night was quite excellent.

We gathered at the Pringles for Kat's return home. I took the car. I asked Nat if she wanted a ride but she said she'd drive. I think it was best. Anyway, I arrived first and no one was around but Alex and Art. I played some pinball and then Nat showed up a few minutes later. She had gotten a ride from her father for various reasons and wanted a ride home. I agreed, knowing little of how much we would need it by the end of the night. We played pinball for a while. I won once with a hefty score and then Alex won once with an excellent score. Nat pushes up against me and then backs off, as if she was trying to get a bearing on our friendship again. I smiled, hugged her and then we continued playing pinball. Things were easier. Meanwhile, Tom shows and we play a round with him. The girls bring Kat home moments later and I leave a really good pinball game so I can say hi. I'm way too kind. We greet and all and then sit down for dinner. I didn't have anything (except my yummy vinegar-vegetables) but we had dinner for just so long and it was so great for all of us to be back together. Nat wasn't terribly talkative most of the time but she was having a good time and that'll all she needs right now.
Allow me to go in to more depth about the dinner table. I do some of my best work at the dinner table. It's a place where we just chat about absolutely everything and we make fun of just about as much. I make people laugh and I get so much from it.
After dinner, Katie and Nora and erm... (other katie I think) showed up along with Jeff and Tillman. We just sat around and had a good time. I know how Nat feels about these people but I still claim that she should give them a chance and I think she did a great job of being kind tonight. I sat with her and hung with her probably more than I should have but I know she would have felt left out if I didn't and I think it's better. We all just had a great time together. I must have flirted with every girl in the room, mostly because they're all great people and I love hanging with them, and they all love me for it. It's a marvelous thing to be loved by everyone and my confidence is at a high point when that happens. Nora got in to NYU. Now all I have to do is get in as well and I can hang with her and maybe even Heather the year after. She says SAT's aren't very important. That's not really what I'm worried about.
Anyway, I just get these great vibes from people when I'm confident and funny and loving everyone. As egotistical as it may be, I feel like everyone wishes I could be with them after last night. Everyone. And that brings me to my last point.
I drove Nat a short way home around 12.30. We didn't talk much on the way home but as I pulled up, I asked if she wanted me to walk to the door. She said please and so I did. When we got to the door (after walking AROUND the grass), we hugged and she cried. It seemed to me like it was out of nowhere although I can almost put the peices together now. I smiled and hugged her again and then I left. She wrote a nice blog post about me, something she doesn't often like to do. It could very well have been an email to me but... it wasn't. It was really nice and I'm glad she posted it. I think the undertones said something about please stop being so damn kind and funny that I keep falling for you and convinving myself that it's over. But it wasn't exactly written so I won't say anything about it. It was very nice though.

In short, I just wanted to express how great it feels to be myself and to be loved by people. I wish I could do it everywhere. Then again, I do a little bit of pretending (read: acting) in my spare time so I think I might be able to pull it off until I'm somewhere that really excites me.